May 05, 2004

"Extreme ways are back again"

I had better days than last Tuesday. First, I have learnt implicitly about the negative "test" result (as described yesterday in the cryptic choices ii. and iii.). I did not care to ask nor to learn the reasons nor justifications for it. I said to myself, "It doesn't matter in a long run. Do not cry over the spilled milk. Now you know where things stand -- get up and act consistently with these results." I somehow felt cleansed and it felt right. However, later in a day I got a call from my son. Again, he dislocated his shoulder. I felt really bed for him. He wanted to play baseball with his friends next year. Now it is questionable, but I still hope he can do it. If I could transplant my shoulder to him, I would do it any minute.

I see today as a bottom, but bottoms are always good to bounce back :-)

In the evening, I listened 40-50 times to a single song by Moby Extreme Ways. I like this song ever since I saw Moby and David Bowie playing at the Shoreline. Somehow, listening to it repeatedly was the right thing to do.

Moby - Extreme Ways

Extreme ways are back again
Extreme places I didn't know
I broke everything new again
Everything that I'd owned
I threw it out the windows, came along
Extreme ways I know move apart
The colors of my sea
Perfect color me

Extreme ways that that help me
Help me out at night
Extreme places I had gone
But never seen any light
Dirty basements, dirty noise
Dirty places coming through
Extreme worlds alone
Did you ever like it planned

I would stand in line for this
There's always room in life for this

Oh baby, oh baby
Then it fell apart, fell apart
Oh baby, oh baby
Then it fell apart, it fell apart
Oh baby, oh baby
Then it fell apart, it fell apart
Oh baby, oh baby
Like it always does, always does

Posted by marek at 12:04 AM

May 04, 2004

Today I'll know the "test" results

Today could be an interesting day in my life. Yesterday, a group of executives, from a company Im consulting with, might have looked at an important to me matter. There are three results possible:
i. They looked at it and said yes (Id consider it a positive result)
ii. They looked at it and said no (Id consider it a negative result)
iii. Somebody decided not to submit the matter for their opinion (Id consider it also a negative result)
Today, I should know the outcome. It feels like waiting for the test results in college. Either way, as a result of this, significant changes are inevitable.

Posted by marek at 05:40 AM

May 01, 2004

1 May 2004

Today is the traditional Labor Day holiday in Poland (as in many other countries outside of North America). Despite the fact that Poland is no longer under communist government it is still an official holiday over there [I guess, people dont want to give up their days off :-)]. However, all the Labor Day celebrations in Poland and in Europe took a back seat to a more important event admission of ten new members, among them Poland, to the European Union.

People ask me how it feels to witness this event and I have problems answering it. It feels like an extremely important historical day, but at the same time it feels that today is the same as yesterday and many days to come. Im still not certain what it means for an average citizen. Well see. Im hopeful though and see a big opportunity for Poland.

Happy EU admission day to you, Poland!

Need to stop having fun and get a job with benefits

Ive been consulting for a while. While I enjoy doing it (you get to see different organizations, face many new challenges and learning opportunities), I have been getting my medical insurance through COBRA. While COBRA coverage doesnt run out next month, I feel urgency [supported by gentle and less gentle hints from my family :-)] to get a regular job with benefits. I got lazy in this department, I need to rewrite my resume and start marketing myself. Ill keep you posted.

Posted by marek at 03:10 PM